i'm supposed to be doing my assignments. note the plural. sigh~ i don't know how i'm gonna finish this in time. i only have til tomorrow, as i will be traveling for work on Tue & Wed. exam's on Thu, incl the deadline for the assignments. this might just be the worst i've ever slacked when it comes to completing my homework.

am a bit sad that class is ending on Thu. i have really liked it -- methinks that the lecturer did a good job in presenting the range of theories/possibilities and challenging us to think through and explore on our own (although he appears to take a pretty conservative stance on most issues). i also get to see a friend i haven't met in a long time prior.

but mostly, this class has been a significant part of me in the past four months. when i was battling the depressive state during my unemployment, going for class was something i really looked forward to each week. it gave me a sense of purpose, a reason to get out of the house, the excitement of learning something new. i love the rush i got when my brain starts churning and forming questions, and my heart pumping rapidly as i approached the lecturer to ask him. :)

but then there were the silly questions that were asked in class that got me rolling my eyes upward overtime, and the constant reminder of the looming deadline over my assignments. part & parcel of class, i suppose. *shrug*

so yeah, kinda bummed out lah. on a positive note, my Thu is freed up.. but with Christmas coming, there are just so many things to attend to! yikes!




my thoughts are weighing me down. i don't really know how to sort them out.

don't know, or don't want to?

"what do you want for yourself?" she asked.
"i don't know.." i squirmed.

if i had a dollar every time i said that..

maybe this is why i am so tired all the time.