cul-de-sac

a few days back, i was having my hands full and eyes occupied optimizing broadband usage at work (*innocent look*) while thinking about something and nothing at all, and i just decided that i would close this blog.

*cue audible gasp

lol!

it's about time anyway -- it's been 5 years and 680+ posts! i'm quite amazing *cough =)* but continuing will risk this being an Atlas Shrugged of a blog (length wise, not depth of content, obviously) and i don't really want that.

so many memories are linked to this blog -- my 1st! i still rber being unwilling to start one way back then - so scared of intrusion of privacy whatnot, and when i did, i was so guarded with the URL, so scared that someone i know would read it (haha duhh i know). i rber choosing the title for this blog - and how ironic it was to end up with this one when i wanted to remain anonymous and not wanting to be known as a PW (i was young then). i rber the millions of times i click on the Edit button - even when no one was reading - and i still do it periodically to older entries. i rber "going public" with my blog via FB and not minding ppl reading it - major step! i rber the person who "inspired" me to start one - he's stopped writing for a while now - too busy i guess. i rber changing the font size to small. fixing the alignment for lyrics (to the right), scripture (centralise), youtube vids (width=200 height=150), etc. i rber the process of writing some pieces and the heady rush i got from it. i rber the little things and the big things and many of the unnecessary things. hehe..

like all bloggers, this is but a public face, a small but very significant part of me. i'd say that this is the more exciting/interesting/accessible part of me (i'm quite a dull person in real life. i mean, i dunno abt you but i find me boring! haha bleh). i realise this is a text-heavy blog and that is a major turn-off esp for ppl who dunno me. haha.. i do try to put in pics once in a while to break the monotony ok! (note to self: i reeeally should get a new phone). after all these times, i still find it unnerving exposing these thoughts, general as they may be. worried about judgmental anonymous stalkers > that's me!

i wrote chiefly for myself (i'm sure you notice how rarely i engage you -- sorry! part of me would love more reader activities but part of me apreaciates the "peace" =) and i still get knots in my tummy from reading past entries or giddy with joy from the songs i've posted -- i loved each of them. i wish i'd been more opinionated though. never really saw the need to be, til recently. we'll see.

so yeah. i've been checking this site out, as i would love to convert TPW into a book. i'm hoping it won't be too expensive. erm, i'm well aware that my name is not anne frank but you're welcome to make orders when i do (there's discount for bulk order =). hahaha..

moving on.

i dunno what i'm gonna do there at the new place. my style of writing would not likely change so probably everything would be similar to what is now. if anything, i'd be something i'm comfortable with. i'll probably use a similar design scheme too. haha.. i think all that's gonna change is just the blog addie.

speaking of which -- i am a hard time thinking of a name for the new blog. chongy suggested that i get inspiration for jon foreman's lyrics, which was a great idea :) i'd really liked the idea of a mirror is hard to hold (it's here).. cos i realise that i hardly know myself (i honestly thought i did). and from my current reading (the quirky Quirkology >> see side bar), you grapple with the same issue too. haha.. i can't pretend to be ignorant when the person i blab to the most is a born psycho. analyzer. logist.

yeah, i'm passive-aggressive lidat. :P

anyways, i've got another prob: getting a unique ID for the URL. you wouldn't believe how so many of the ones that i wanted have been taken up - by people who don't blog! grr.. i mean, they just take the URL, but post like once or twice only. yier! don't worry - i'll give u the blog addie soon as i have it. i know what it's like being a blog stalker. haha.. wouldn't wanna leave you hanging ;)

tty soon.